It didn’t start out as a plan, but more of an inconvenience. I was dog sitting a puppy who couldn’t be left alone for even a couple minutes and I was putting on makeup with him on a leash and knew this couldn’t work, so I decided I would put my makeup away and be “au naturel” for the week. I’m always finding daily or monthly challenges for myself to do but this one, made up on the spot, was unexpectedly just what I needed. As a makeup artist I realize writing about this does not help my business but I don’t care, I needed to get this out.
I know a lot of people claim they have no makeup on but will still draw on eyebrows and put on mascara but when I say I went bare, I was completely bare, I didn’t even have moisturizer on. The first day was by far the weirdest for me and most eye opening. I avoided looking in the mirror, I wore sunglasses and a ball cap and kept a low profile. When I did look in the mirror at the end of the day (which I forced myself to do) and by look in the mirror I mean take a good long, hard look at what was staring back at me, I didn’t even recognize myself! I saw so many freckles and blotches, misplaced hairs and wrinkles which I always knew were there but never acknowledged. I saw lines, spots, rough patches, peach fuzz, I saw it all. I didn’t know what was more surprising; that I never took time to really look at myself or that I was so ashamed of what I looked like without makeup. The next thing I did was the hardest but what made the rest of the week so beneficial for me. I went from forehead to chin and thanked God for every single thing I could see and forced myself to get used to seeing this side of me. If you’re not used to wearing makeup I realize this sounds so ridiculous and you’ve probably been rolling your eyes since reading the title of this post, but if makeup is a big part of your daily routine, and for so many people it is, then I know you feel me. I know so many girls (myself included) who won’t leave the house without a “face on”. This made me ask myself what I was covering up, why I couldn’t be myself, and why I let myself hide under a mask. I felt more comfortable around others by hiding my imperfections. I don’t have the ability to make this arm thinner in one snap or to make my legs longer or to make my feet fit into smaller shoes but with makeup I have the ability to mask the things I don’t want to world to see and to enhance the things I want to be seen.
Makeup is a quick fix and makes me feel 100% more confident, which is the reason I became a makeup artist in the first place. Primarily I loved the creativity behind it, but I also love making people see their beauty enhanced and making people feel empowered and confident. What I realized by day 4 of my impromptu “no makeup for a week” challenge, was that I was able to feel those things without makeup as well. If anything, by not wearing makeup I was forced to amp up my confidence and rely more on my self love to get past my insecurities. I had to tell myself every morning that this is what I wanted people to see, what I wanted to be seen as, a confident woman who didn’t need makeup to feel beautiful. I was forced to put my “best face forward” which in this case was my real face, bare to the world!
It was an interesting experiment in itself as I ran into a couple friends during the week and none of them recognized me until I made the first move. My makeup had made me a different person that my own friends didn’t recognize me without it! By day 7 I became so accustomed to being myself that I continued into the next week. I can’t believe I firstly would admit to all this and secondly that I am honestly 100% okay with going out in public with no makeup on! It’s refreshing and rejuvenating in a way that can only be experienced if you try this for yourself! Did this experience convince me to throw away all my makeup and never wear it again? No, I still love the art and creativity of makeup and enhancing the things I find beautiful BUT I will not feel the need to wear it, I will not feel like a slave to it. Not to mention, MAC cut me off from my beloved discount program 🙂
I found new confidence in being authentically me and feel completely comfortable being able to leave my house with no potions or lotions to hide behind and I might finally be on time for things!
**I still LOVE makeup, I just don’t NEED it and am still available for all your makeup needs and requests :)**